Well, I know I said before that I would post day-to-day and then conceded to week-to-week, but now I must hang my head in shame as it has been too many weeks to count since I posted. I thought the blog would be a great way to communicate with friends and loved ones, but to be honest, I have a Myspace and a Facebook that already keep me so busy. I will try to do better...I promise.
As for the new year, a very dear person in my life asked me yesterday what my New Years Resolution was going to be. I replied, as honestly as possible, that I do not make resolutions because I NEVER keep them. I try. Honest, I do try, but unfortunately I fail at keeping my promises to myself that I will make some DRASTIC change in my life for the better. It is such as wonderful thought to think that at the turn of the new year that we will set out on yet another chapter of our lives and begin it with a laundry list of the things we regret and want to change. I ask myself, why? Why do we only do this at the end of yet another year? It seems actually quite Topsy-turvy to begin a brand new chapter with a list of the negative.
Therefore, I do not make resolutions, but I do make plans. My plans for this year are quite simple. I am going to get healthy this year. These last two years have been the worst of my life and I am hoping that they will remain the worst and there are only good things to come. I am going to go into remission and get myself on track and actually do the things that I want to do in my dreams rather than only participating in my life in my subconscious. I am ready to do it. I know it will be hard. There will be times that I fail, but I will have the determination to pick myself up and begin again. I have to. There are no other options. To put it simply...I am done.
So for those of you who DO make resolutions, I wish you the best of luck in keeping to them. Accomplish all your goals and dreams. Don't let life pass you by. It is short...and it gets shorter every year.
My love to you all and Happy New Year!! 2009
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Andi, you are such a beautiful and gifted writer. I know how harsh life's blows have been for you the last few years. I'm so happy to hear you say "I'm going to beat it!" It is hard to explain, this feeling inside; I just know it is going to be a grand year. Positive thoughts, love, joy, and depth of passion for living will definitely see us through the tough spots. If not, then a huge hug and girly weekend are less than a morning drive away. I love you!!!
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